Yesterday was a rough day for me. I am trying SO hard not to complain and to look at everything in a positive way but jeez louise it’s getting difficult. I am very healthy, have a wonderful boyfriend, and loving family and friends all over the world. I write this awesome blog with awesome readers like you and I get to help people become happier and healthier all day. But something’s missing.
Maybe this is the problem with a lot of post-grads but I just expected my life to be slightly easier after I went through 6 years of 80 hour weeks in college. My social life was pretty great but I had no time to enjoy my friends. Now I’m finally making money (not much but it’s something) and am only working 50 hour weeks. But I don’t have any friends! Poor Mike bears the brunt of my breakdowns but they’re coming more and more often lately and it’s getting harder to turn my mood around. I would never trade my time with him for anything but WOMEN NEED WOMEN. And every attempt I’ve made to make plans with the ladies here has resulted in a great party/dinner/event but then never a word from them afterwords. Pretty discouraging and I’m just not sure what else to try.
Yesterday was rough. I had evening work to do but I said F that shiz and I cooked instead! I turned on my “singing” playlist and drowned myself in the music and the methodical process of cooking a meal. Ratatouille was the dish, taken from this awesome blogger. I never even knew what Ratatouille was so it wasn’t the best meal I’ve ever made but I’ll try it again and it will be even better.
The point is that I am finally starting to learn what calms me and brings me into the present. Having anxiety (check out this post) is a constant struggle against your own thoughts. It’s not an easy battle to win, but I’m trying. I fail a lot but I also succeed sometimes. My hope is that the successes will soon outweigh the failures and I can live my life in a more balanced way.
^ When I figure out how to make this better I will post my recipe.
So this morning I woke up and determined that it would be a better day. I’m starting off by writing to you (another one of my calmers) and now I’m about to work out and eat a nice, slow breakfast.
I hope you’re all having wonderful days. And if you’re not, figure out how to recenter yourself.
A Happy Lass 
That is the best way to alleviate any lingering obstacles: get a good breakfast in your body:))
Yes sir! I completely agree. This is what I eat every morning:
https://ahappylass.wordpress.com/2012/09/13/low-grain-high-protein-gluten-free-breakfast/
Definitely helps me get up and go.
Keep your chin up my beautiful girl. Why not join a club to meet people like you did in SD.
Mike and I joined the bike club and I looked into the tri club but everyone is significantly older or just much more into sports. And it’s starting to get cold. I even looked for adult leagues in silly things like broom ball or something. Nothing. I’m keeping an eye out though.
Whenever I am having “one of those days” I read your blog and it helps me stay positive-at least for an hour or so! I am an inherently pessimistic person and you inspire me to work on being a little bit more “glass half full.” When I have anxiety I feel like it consumes me and it can be really hard to break the cycle. Just wanted to say thanks for being awesome. Miss you 🙂
Thank you Carolyn 🙂
You mean a lot to mean so I really really glad that I can sometimes help your mood. And thanks for telling me. you know I love compliments. Haha. Love you chick.